Thursday, October 11, 2012

{it's getting better all the time}

 

 
I feel good about it. I just did it.

I just dropped one of my classes for this semester.  I was enrolled in 6 hours of graduate work, but I was literally breaking my back and going to bed after midnight some nights (during the work week) only to wake up at 5:00 AM the next morning and do it all over again.

My husband made a good point.  What am I trying to prove?  I didn't have an answer for that.  I guess I was just trying to show that I can do it.  I can be a superwoman.  I can raise my kids, spend time with family, scrapbook, do homework, go to work Monday through Friday 7:40 AM to 5:00 PM, get dinner on the table, do the laundry... I can do it all, but I can't At least right now I can't.

I feel like I spend so much time worrying about school and not enough time doing the things I love. Some nights I just want to veg out in front of a movie with my lover - Gavin Watson. And sometimes I just want to draw pictures with my little girl.  Sometimes I just want to nurse my son, not be taking exams, etc.  AND sometimes I want to just sit down and get crafty!

Well now I'm going to. I am down to taking just one class this semester, and I am going to make the the most of it and put forth the effort to do well. Slow and steady wins the race.  Granted it will be a tough go for me bright things are on the horizon. 

Say a little prayer for me that I can be successful in my ONE class this semester.  I just want to focus on living my life, not barely living because I'm so stressed from school because it's always on the back of my mind.

 I will no longer feel guilty for playing rather than studying, and I will no longer feel guilty for studying when I'd rather be playing.

Do you have any obstacles that you are trying to overcome? Right now it's my pride and determination.  For me, honesty is admitting that I AM burned out on school right now.  I know what I want to do with my future, and yes, I need a master's degree to do it, but NOT right away.  I can totally be comfortable in the here and now.  I don't want to miss all the 'little' things going on in my life, especially in regards to my babies.  They grow up in the blink of an eye, and I already feel like I've missed so much with Harper because I was busy with my undergrad during her first 3 years of life.

It's time that I come clean to the world and myself. Thank you for your support my dear friends!!


Stop and Smell the Flowers by Gabrielle Watson - Made with Citrus Twist Kit "Tropical Heat" and patterned paper add on from August
Brads and sticker letters from my personal stash.

Here is a lovely layout of my beautiful girl stopping to smell the flowers and look through windows of the Downtown Denton Square. Maybe I should take a hint from her to just slow down.  Stop and smell the flowers mom :)

With Love,
Gabrielle Watson

8 comments:

Mary Pat Siehl said...

cute layout! love the washi tape!!

thanks so much for stopping by my blog today and taking the time to write such a kind comment. i would be honored if you stopped by again sometime or even signed up to follow me and I will do the same!
thanks again- mp

Lisa Rukin Swift said...

Very pretty layout! It sounds like you made a great decision. I tend to take on too much too and I think I can do it "all". :)

laura said...

It sounds like the right choice. If you take on too much, than everything suffers.

Cheryl Husmann said...

Oh, my goodness. Don't you feel guilty for one second. My daughter is finishing up school, working full time and has three kids at home (two of them babies). It is so hard. And this is all on-line, but it;s still so, so hard. You are an inspiration!

P.S. I love the layout! Almost forgot!!

Staci said...

That LO is gorgeous! Good for you for changing your mindset. We as women always take on so much. Have a wonderful weekend!

Margie H said...

I'm thinking it's a great choice to make for you right now...slow down and enjoy life, right?!

Wonderful page - lovin' the washi tape!

Sandy Ang said...

It must be really hard to juggle so many commitments. Glad you are able to take things a little easier now. And as always look forward to seeing how you use trina's kits.

WithPaperInMind said...

I have bad news for a thicker lover like yourself. allscrapbooksteals has several styles for 2.50/pack and umm, if you have copics they color so nicely.